Woke up late today,
And I still feel the sting of the pain,
But I brushed my teeth anyway.
I got dressed through the mess,
And put a smile on my face.
I got a little bit stronger.

Riding in the car to work,
And I'm trying to ignore the hurt.
So I turned on the radio,
Stupid song made me think of you.
I listened to it for a minute,
But then I changed it.
I'm getting a little bit stronger,
Just a little bit stronger.

And I'm done hoping we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels
Spinning my wheels,
Letting you drag my heart around.
And I'm done thinking you could ever change,
I know my heart will never be the same.
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days,
I get a little bit stronger.

It doesn't happen overnight,
But you turn around and a months gone by,
And you realize you haven't cried.
I'm not giving you an hour, or a second, or another minute longer.
I'm busy getting stronger.

And I'm done hoping we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels
Spinning my wheels,
Letting you drag my heart around.
And I'm done thinking you could ever change,
I know my heart will never be the same.
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days,
I get a little bit stronger.
I get a little bit stronger.

Getting along without you baby,
Better off without you baby,
How does it feel without me baby?
I'm getting stronger without you baby.

And I'm done hoping we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels
Spinning my wheels,
Letting you drag my heart around.
And I'm done thinking you could ever change,
I know my heart will never be the same.
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days,
I get a little bit stronger.

I get a little bit stronger.
Just a little bit stronger.
Little bit, little bit, little bit stronger.
Get a little bit stronger.

She looks happier without me around.
She has moved on. Moved on a life that would suit her more.
I've come to a realization that perhaps, I guess the time she spend with me was kind of nightmare for her.
I didn't realised that I am actually bringing her alot of pain then for myself.
I can even sense and feel how much she don't want me to appear in front of her.
Never did I expect that I am such a person.
Now, I'm now being hated for.
And I think its time for me to take a leave.
That's all I can offer.

I've watched "Crazy Stupid Love' yesterday! I think it was a great film!

Do you believe in true love and soulmate? Yes, of course I do believe. Just that whether they appear at the right moment in our lives. I thought I've found. But, I was wronged. Till today, I still believe in what I actually believe in initially. Some of us loses our faith in love in the end. Some of us choose to carry on with the faith in us for the rest of our lives. I am one of them who chooses to carry on with my personal belief towards love.


You know what about love? Regardless of age, gender, race, religion, looks and etc. Love has no bounderies. Love has no limits. Love is a beautiful thing. And I know I it's a cliche to say this. But well, the point is that I've been in love before. Been there done that. Because I once loved.

Is this what you're feeling now?

Everything I've prayed for her is fufilled! Thank you Lord! If it ended in a bad way today, I would have cursed and blamed myself. God never fails us in a way. Well, things have ended, but it isn't exactly over for me. Trying to cope & embrace the things around me that is happening nowadays. I actually can't helped to think that I could have been used by her to a certain extend. But anyway, this is the choice I've made. I've no regrets over it. I do believe to a certain extend people do make use of certain people in their life to overcome their toughest time or whatever deep situations they are caught in. We all are humans, it natural for us to long for things and in order to achieve and attain these things we need people around us to help us.

Some people just wants companionship.
Some people just wants love.
Some people just long to be recognised by people who they want to.

This 2 words 'being used' sound like a bad deal but but its kinda of true. Could I have been being used? And if I could start telling you what I feel at this point, would you accept it? Would you even take a moment to stop and listen to me?

Or will you start to judge the kind of person I am?
Someone who is small at heart?
Or will you start thinking that I've changed or I am still the same old me?
Or will you think that I hasn't grown up at all?
Will anyone judge me if I start talking about it?
Sometimes, I think my thoughts are like an open field.

I just happened to come across this:

Although Pitt and Oscar winner Jolie have been together for more than five years, the actor has said they will not marry until gay marriage is widely legalized. He is sticking to that.

"We'll get married when everyone can," Pitt told Parade.

If everyone could think like them. If only love was that simple. If only everyone can get marry. If only. Being human beings we tend to deviate from what we used to believe in initially. This is who we are.

"At the end of the day, I pray to God to let me be able to embrace those people who hurt me in my life. It's actually very difficult to forget how much that person hurt you because it's so painful that they sometimes can leave a permanent scar in your life. Its not about hatred. It's about able to forget the pain."

In life, some people can never actually understand why you are doing certain things. They tend to disagree and tend to beg to differ. Do you believe that sometimes in life, there are just some things that you need to do to make you feel better? You wouldn't want to wait till someday when you are unable to do it anymore to realise that it could have been better if you done it or earlier. This is exactly what I am feeling now. And even if I said so, will you believe me?

Sometimes even as a harbour any slightest feelings for you, makes me feel utterly guilty. I shouldnt even had any thoughts of us getting back together. It should be the best way how things end. Yes, it is the best for both of us. God loves you. He wants you back. Morever, things arent the same anymore. Feelings fade, human change. The only thing that is ever ever constant is God's love.

丞琳 - 仰望

如果能重来 我的答案 会不会更改 或是等待
守在你身旁 绝对不逃开 不让谁将我们冲散

不怕风看穿 我的孤单 不怕雨纠缠 眼泪擦干
让回忆倒带 我将爱保管 别让我一个人承担
这个失去你的遗憾　我会勇敢
仰望风 能带你回来 仰望雨 能安静听完
脸庞 发烫 眼眶 抵抗 不肯让你离开 丢下我流浪

仰望你 抱我在胸膛 仰望梦 能给我力量
不让爱逃亡 不让心躲藏 让我坚强

无法预知 我努力 我必需 遗忘的疼痛
假装执着 我知道我抬起头 会有你的守候

仰望风 能带你回来 仰望雨 能安静听完
脸庞 发烫 眼眶 抵抗 不肯让你离开 丢下我流浪

仰望你 抱我在胸膛 仰望梦 能给我力量
不让爱逃亡 不让心躲藏 不让我疯狂

P/s:如果能重来 我的答案 会不会更改 或是等待
守在你身旁 绝对不逃开 不让谁将我们冲散

You said we are from both different world, you love english songs and I appreciates chinese songs. And that I am a very chinese person. You said that this is our differences. Maybe you were right and maybe half of the time it was an excuse for you because you already lost the feelings for me. I was speechless. It wasn't that I am a very chinese person. Chinese lyrics can be very beautiful too. You if you truly love the person, you will learn to accept and love the person for who they are, even the things they liked. And maybe we are just not meant to be together. And because I love you and you made me realised that many things are interesting and beautiful. I've learnt to smell the roses. I held on tightly and have faith in our relationship but come to realise that faith dont exist in almost everything. Except the faith in God will never change. Sound cliche, but true indeed.

Intimacy.
Honesty.
Commitment.

Its not there since along time back. No longer.

I miss those days and time that I've spent with you.
I miss the warmth & embrace from your hug and the warmth from your hand when you hold me tightly.
I really wished God could turn back time & you could give this love a second chance.
Then again, is that what I want? Is that what God wants for us?
I just want you to be happy. Find your real happinesses.
All I can do is to pray and let God leads us in our future days.
I'd still miss you so. Do you feel the same way?

Not proud to mention at all. Loneliness is what I've deal with.
You know I always had a problem dealing with the issue of loneliness - feeling alone and empty. Literally alone.
Companionship means alot to me that is why I treasure it alot.
Now, I just have to go back to where I've come from.

Today, I come acrossed 2 beautiful lines that says:
"Faith makes all thing possible, love makes all things beautiful"

I think happiness made up of both faith & love. :)

I feel bad. I feel towards you. I'm sorry.

I guessed it feels more like I'm letting go rather than being more positive. I think there's always a line between being positive enough to move on and being able to loosen the tight fist of mine. No longer young to ignore what's happening next.

Hard to forget. Let alone forgive.
I needa stop at 2nd pack. I need to.

'For as long as you are happy, I will be happy for you too.'