Everything I've prayed for her is fufilled! Thank you Lord! If it ended in a bad way today, I would have cursed and blamed myself. God never fails us in a way. Well, things have ended, but it isn't exactly over for me. Trying to cope & embrace the things around me that is happening nowadays. I actually can't helped to think that I could have been used by her to a certain extend. But anyway, this is the choice I've made. I've no regrets over it. I do believe to a certain extend people do make use of certain people in their life to overcome their toughest time or whatever deep situations they are caught in. We all are humans, it natural for us to long for things and in order to achieve and attain these things we need people around us to help us.

Some people just wants companionship.
Some people just wants love.
Some people just long to be recognised by people who they want to.

This 2 words 'being used' sound like a bad deal but but its kinda of true. Could I have been being used? And if I could start telling you what I feel at this point, would you accept it? Would you even take a moment to stop and listen to me?

Or will you start to judge the kind of person I am?
Someone who is small at heart?
Or will you start thinking that I've changed or I am still the same old me?
Or will you think that I hasn't grown up at all?
Will anyone judge me if I start talking about it?
Sometimes, I think my thoughts are like an open field.