It's really difficult to forget someone whom you were with before. Someone whom you decides to let into your life but yet now you have to forget that person. I never had to forget someone so hard before. But anyways, I will be strong. I can be and I need to be strong. I will keep telling myself this is part and parcel of my life. After all the obstacles, I will be a stronger person. Cause I'm all alone here and I'm the master of my soul. I'll continue keep you in my prayer.

I re-watched IP Man 2 and I cried. It was touching because of his ending wining speech in the movie after a brutal fight with the racist Caucasians. He said:

"Hello. I didn't come here today to prove who is better. The Chinese or the western boxing. Although people have different status in life, I don't believe in one person's integrity is worth more than another. I hope we can start to respect each other. That's all. Thank you."

I just realized that all great man or leader are really charismatic. They just have a great sense of things going on around their lives and always speaks with wisdom. They are people who can inspired the others and brings about revolution. Therefore, change comes from people who are able to do it.

Another inspiring speech from Nelson Mandala:

"I thank whatever gods maybe for my unconquerable soul. I am the master of my fate and I am the captain of my soul."

Can't help but to recall back Year 2010. It was a major year to me. I lost myself. Including, a big part of my comfort zone. Can't help to think sometimes, they are like a family to me. I may have been forgotten by them. I spent almost every of my weekends with them during the past. They are realy nice people to be with. In fact, I felt their warmth and love so much. I know it's been replace with many things, maybe many people. But I guessed things have changed. I wasn't intended to be part of them. If I wasn't, then I wasn't the one. The one who can stay till the end. I think maybe God has some other plans for me awaiting me to fufill. Life is strange and peculiar. I just have to keep trusting God.

Every month, there will be a day the same feeling comes back.
Then I will start to do the silly things again.
This month I shall not let myself feel the same way.
Just want to keep God in my mind every now and then.
God, take me and walk me through this. I know you will.

I used to envy alot and be jealous of others. I'm jealous of the abilties that they posessed and the things they can enjoy but I can't. And I'm always thinking of what I am lacking instead of what I have. But as I grow older, I realised that I've forgotten to take alook at what others do not have or what are the abilities and qualities they do not possess. Everyone ain't perfect. Everyone must have that something in each and individual of them that lacking of. Know what? Even the king isn't perfect too. Just like everyone elses, he struggles too. The point is that he works hard for it. I need to work hard too. The King's Speech. A great movie.

Bon Jovi - Have a Little Faith In Me

Time is our friend.

Dear God,

I'm happy that you're in my life. And I'm happy for everyone around me. Thanks for answering my prayer for everyone that I loved. God, I'm praying for her. Prayed that she will find someone who loves and will love her for who she is. I thank you ahead for whatever happens in the future, because I know you definitely gonna answer my prayer! Cause you're awesome! It's her time, it's her calling. Continue to shine her life with your love!