You are like an instructment that God used to challenge me against my fear. You probably made me 10 times stronger than I was before. It like the more you didn't want it to happen, the more it happened. This is how life is. This is how God had planned my life for me. Yes, it is indeed tormenting but I have to go through it. I don't know why I allowed myself to build my life around you in the past. I really don't know. It's probably when you love someone too much. I know you've been through more than me, that's maybe where the difference lies. It was much latent for me. I loved how it is right now that I am alone cause I'm thinkining more. Thinking alot more.