Some pics taken at Taiwan...

Taken at Long Shan Temple

Taken at KiLin hotel before breakfast.

Well, if I don't put pictures my blog it will be like super wordy. But who cares and most importantly, who reads? Haa. These few days I'm like reminiscing and looking through all the pictures I've. Not only those taken at Taipei, but many others photos with my other friends. I realised one fact about me. I've lotsa of friends. Oh well, I should be glad and proud of it. Haa. But and that when I threw myself another question to myself. Things are like differernt now. The question that is...How many of these friends I've will last and go through with me till the end? I sanked into deep thoughts. I guessed the answer is I don't know. I treasure the people me. But I don't know if they felt the same way. Who will last with me? Is it you?

Sad isn't it? After we really start work, I've got a feeling that all will lost contact. And this is happening real soon. Cause some of them gonna start work in the following week. The thought of it is like super down. And meanwhile, I'm like a slacker who is slacking around untill my work commends at 5th May. They say is good that you can enjoy more. But, I rather start at the same time or earlier. This is because all my friends have like already started by then. It's like so depressing to see your friends work and you are slacking all the time. Just these emptiness and lonliness that overwhelmed me.

Imagine when you online. No ones there. Imagine they are working, no one out to shop with you. Imagine your handphone doesn't received any msg-es. Imagine you were at home all day facing the computor. Imagine you don't know where you''ll be post to? Imagine you keep staying at home whole day doing nothing but fearing that you might be post to some evil wards that the sister and colleugues pick on your mistake as a new staff nurse. And I'm like doing all these right now. Lol.

Oh well, people around me envy for what I've today. This includes, the luxary to travel around countries to relax and shop. The luxary of having more than 10k in my bank saving account. The luxary of having alof of friends around me. People often look at the glamorous and glory part of you and most of the times they never look back at the same when you were once feeling down and lost. Friends always say I've got lotsa of money, which I seriously don't feel good. But, did they ever thought of where did the money came from? I knew they know that is all the bond money and I don't blame them at all. Many a times, I just smiled and get over it.

It's true that I spend more time with my poly friends then secondary school friends. I admit it. I don't know how to explain these. Maybe in a shorter way is that when I'm feeling really down for that period of time my close secondary school pals weren't with me and when that I thought they ought to be there with me, they're not. I'm not trying to say that my poly friends were with me during that period of down times, but there some who really went through the bad times with me and I picked up slowly from there.

I was told to write and vent out things which I kept inside me. Thus, I'm doing it now. Cheers. =D. I hope I can sleep better tonight. Insomia is coming back. Arghz!